Sunday, December 31, 2006
i don't usually advocate taking a pic of one's own chest to post on your blog, because it's not really that kind of site.
but it didn't occur to me until i put it on, that i love my new shirt alot (purchased WITH CASH in the target clearance section yesterday)...
but shouldn't it say "good will TOWARD men?"
1 Lose Weight - if there is a time limit on resolutions, i have expired this one a LONG long time ago. changing it to "weigh whatever for now, because Jesus has a new body waiting for me!!" (wouldn't it be funny if it's a perfectly chubby one?!)
2 Pay Off Debt - only if they pry the credit card out of my hand when i'm rummaging thru the target clearance aisles...
3 Save Money - how about "not relying on money to make you happy?"
4 Get a Better Job - not possible, of that i am fairly certain!
5 Get Fit - then i would have to dust the treadmill!! see yesterday's post.
6 Eat Right - sometimes, chocolate chips eaten out of the bag just feel "right."
7 Get a Better Education - does reading Martha Stewart's LIVING and learning how to make homemade marshmallows count?
8 Drink Less Alcohol - finally, an easy one! anyone want the one bottle of "big house white" in my fridge?!
9 Quit Smoking Now - or "encourage others (ie phillip) to think about quitting smoking while he still actually HAS LUNGS."
10 Reduce Stress Overall - might mean rethinking the decision to get a cat who decides to go into heat 2 weeks after purchase, one week BEFORE spay appointment - 24 hours into it, and i want to go throw her out in the street!
11 Reduce Stress at Work - perhaps by setting blogging time limit each day (NOT 6 hours). oh, and NOT sharing a home office with a cat in heat.
12 Take a Trip - away from above-mentioned cat at this point in time.
13 Volunteer to Help Others - anybody need anything? i'm there!! especially for YOU guys.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
hmmm. only moments after posting about messy housekeeping, i walked down the stairs to discover this fiasco...leftover from a night of fun in the basement! i guess siesta likes to party with salsa while beener and i are peacefully sleeping upstairs.
as i was cleaning this up, she was laying there snottily thumping her tail, watching me carefully avoid the glass shards with my bare feet, and i could swear i could hear her saying "that's RIGHT, sistah, messes rule."
An anti-anticlutter movement is afoot, one that says yes to mess and urges you to embrace your disorder. Studies are piling up that show that messy desks are the vivid signatures of people with creative, limber minds (who reap higher salaries than those with neat “office landscapes”) and that messy closet owners are probably better parents and nicer and cooler than their tidier counterparts. It’s a movement that confirms what you have known, deep down, all along: really neat people are not avatars of the good life; they are humorless and inflexible prigs, and have way too much time on their hands.
“It’s chasing an illusion to think that any organization — be it a family unit or a corporation — can be completely rid of disorder on any consistent basis,” said Jerrold Pollak, a neuropsychologist at Seacoast Mental Health Center in Portsmouth, N.H., whose work involves helping people tolerate the inherent disorder in their lives. “And if it could, should it be? Total organization is a futile attempt to deny and control the unpredictability of life. I live in a world of total clutter, advising on cases where you’d think from all the paper it’s the F.B.I. files on the Unabomber,” when, in fact, he said, it’s only “a person with a stiff neck.”the above was taken in part from an article in the New York Times...looks like i can cross one item off my new year's resolution list! it's a great article, and it makes me laugh to think about my sad attempts to be a good housekeeper. the thing that i've discovered is that YOU HAVE TO KEEP DOING IT. man, not sure that is worth the effort. so, i clean up the house about once a week, and my office whenever i start tripping over the stuff in it. i daydream about file folders and wicker bins and tidy bookshelves. but then i go eat a cookie and watch "flip that house."
some of my friends, however, might want to check this article out...not that i'm expecting YOU will change anytime soon, either :)
Thursday, December 28, 2006
it was way back then that my music tastes started to change. i grew up mostly with country music, and guys like johnny cash and kenny rogers were really all i knew of. i was not one of the first ones to discover 10,000 maniacs, but later in the 80s i fell in love hard! not only with natalie merchant and her buddy michael stipe from rem, but with practically anybody from athens, georgia. for many many years, i fantasized about moving to athens and living the artsy bohemian lifestyle i thought i was meant to live.
these days, i still wonder about artsy bohemian lives, heck, maybe i even kind of have one. but now it's austin, texas where the real artists live, and lord knows WHO the new natalie is!
it doesn't matter, cause i am happily listening to her "campfire songs" this afternoon, and feeling young again!
wow, getting back to work after the christmas break is painful. here it is, thursday already, and i am still procrastinating. today i MUST get some things done!
i've done everything i can to avoid work. i have checked every blog i know of (dang, almost nobody blogs on christmas!!) and i've played with both cats until they are sick of me. i've made coffee with christmas gift [a] - a new cuisinart coffee maker from m&d, and now i am fixated on christmas gift [b] - some very colorful garden clogs from phil's mom in california.
she said to wait for summer to wear them, but i think they are just the thing for a post-holiday pick me up!!!
whoever said staring at your feet was boring, did NOT own a pair of these.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Saturday, December 23, 2006
well, as the christmas weekend gets into full swing, my thoughts turn to gifts. all of the holiday shopping is actually done, but the gifts i am talking about are the ones you can't plant under the tree.
and i am very thankful for all of them.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. james 1:17
• for the family God placed me into, my mom and dad and brother, whom i love so much and who gave me the grounding to be who i am...
• for the friends God has placed around me, all ages and all varying backgrounds, but with the common ground of time, and place, and meeting in the heart and mind...
• for phillip, who i waited a LONG time for, and have found such joy in sharing my life with...
• for the home, the work, the garden, the "possessions" that God has allowed me to hold onto for Him, for awhile...
• for the furry creatures that roam in this life, beener and siesta and the bunnies and birds and squirrels that make life more interesting...
• for the purpose, the desire to live each day fully, in abundance, with hope and joy and love...
• for the grace He has shown, since i was born 44 years ago, to the time 5 years ago that i finally came home to live with Him, and even still...
i pray that each of you experience all of God's good gifts this christmas also, beginning with His love and care!
merry christmas :)
Friday, December 22, 2006
oh my. too much time on my hands again, so i went surfing...found a really really neat thing...called a word cloud. they are supposed to be for sale, but you can make one just to see what they look like.
very neat in the context of all this talk about favorite words lately. this computer program combs thru your website (blogsite), picks out random words and "designs" them into a visual.
i notice that many of the important things from my blog are there (God, beener, carey, tomatoes) but not phillip?! doh. for the most part i'm happy with it, although i find it funny that "beer" is part of my word cloud. and right next to love is "mean"...? oh well, busted!!
check it out:
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
well, i think we have a name here.
she is still living in the basement, and still hissing whenever she gets a whiff of been. but you know what, she is very cute and already has won my heart. she has her vaccinations, and i have been calling her george.
phillip rejected that quickly ("you can't give her a real person's name") and came up with...siesta.
i have to admit, that is a pretty good one. and since i have been famous for naming pets names like pooch, and tigger, and well, beener, who am i to judge?! so, don't tell him i said so, but he wins.
welcome to the family, siesta, hope you can stay awhile :)
a fellow blogmate had a great post about the word "argh" yesterday. as anybody who knows my email habits can tell you, i use the word "argh" in many creative forms. often.
it got me thinking about my all-time, no questions asked, life long favorite word.
back in 8th grade, when i was the brookings middle school argus leader spelling champion, this was one of my study words! it's so fantastic, but i wonder who thought of it. the spelling is crazy, i used to be able to roll it off easily, but in my old age sometimes i need to stop and think for a sec.
still, it's a good word. probably because using an onomatopoeia is something all advertising people like to do. they are so direct, so easy to figure out, so YOWZA! fun... :)
ha. sometimes i fantasize about being a college professor...(i know, i'm a little weird). and if that fantasy ever comes true, i am going to assign my students the word onomatopoeia and ask them to illustrate it creatively.
come to think of it, i need to do that too!
SHEESH. as if i don't have enough to do already.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
okay, stop right here if you are not a graphic designer. but if you are one, this is kinda funny.
a font walks into a bar and sits down. the bartender looks at him and says "get out of here, you're not our type."
:) so glad my professional membership to the american institute of graphic arts is good for something. this was overheard last week at a members' event.
i woke up this morning, worrying about the cat and looking at a full calendar and wondering what happened to my plan to have a nice peaceful week. oh yeah, i might want to pray about that.
i am listening right now, to our church sermon from last sunday. another nice thing about the internet is that you can listen to almost anything you choose to, from itunes to church services, while you are online.
sometimes, but not nearly often enough, i listen to my pastor's sermon. i attend a wonderful church pastored for the last 20 years by a wonderful man, ron traub. he is 60 years old, came to SD from detroit michigan with his wife margo many years ago, answering God's call and not really wanting to move to the middle of nowhere with us in SD. but he did it, and he stayed. and i don't think God was making a mistake, pastor traub has helped change lives here, including mine.
the tagline for our church is "love first" - combining the Lord's commandments and the name of our church, First Assembly of God.
today, if you are sitting online with some extra time, you might want to check us out!
Monday, December 18, 2006
turns out mini-me is a feisty one. she is nothing but pure sunshine and sugar with me, but when she spots beener, the ears go back flat, and she lets out one of those deep throaty growl/yowl noises that always scares the heck out of me. been is pretty oblivious, he looks at her and then looks at me like "what's her deal?"
so much for advertising. she was billed like this:
DESCRIPTION: Connie was found as a stray on Hillside Drive. She's front declawed, litterbox trained and she loves to be brushed. Connie is very laid back; curious and she loves to explore her surroundings. LIKES: Kids; Cats; Strangers
i would agree that she is curious and loves to explore. ditto on the litterbox training. but as i was sitting on the couch last night watching her, i was just a bit surprised when she hauled off and started shredding the arm of the couch. and she had all the tools to do it, if you know what i mean. to top it off, she really really REALLY looks pregnant, will find that out with the first vet visit! oh man.
i guess the next couple of days will be interesting as we all adjust to the new life. i am asking the Lord today "why do i always want instant gratification, when you seem to prefer perseverance?"
Sunday, December 17, 2006
beener the cat just wanted you all to know - he finally has a real live "mini-me"!
she's a girl, about a year old, yet unnamed (well, she came with the name Connie, but that has to go) and currently is residing in the basement under a big chest on some pillows, until it seems safe to come out.
been isn't exactly thrilled with the addition, but then again, he did sniff around a bit and then go lay on the bed for a nap and/or contemplation of the whole deal.
so far, it's looking like a smooth addition to the family :))
after talking to lk on friday, i started thinking about the garden again. i remembered back to growing up, when my mom and i always looked forward to getting the gurneys catalogue in the mail. we went thru it page by page, and imagined the beautiful new gems that we would try to grow. we usually placed a small order in the spring too, and somehow the spindly roots and sprigs of life wrapped in plastic never even came close to living up to the dreams we had in our heads!
but it probably explains some of my love of magazines, and of course gardens (well, and actually, my mom!). so in the spirit of gurneys, and going back to your roots, i went online today and ordered a few seed catalogues. most of them are fancier than the old days, organic seeds and seed trading companies and herb catalogues and such. but you know what? this time i know that THE DREAM is what it's all about, not the end result :)
Saturday, December 16, 2006
lately some of us bloggers have been discovering that there are people who view our sites who never comment! not a large number, because not that many people really know our domain names, or care enough to stalk us anyway :)
last night, one of my "blokkers" outed herself, and it was a great surprise! she got thru to the site from another friend of ours, who lives in st. paul...lk is a longtime friend from way back when at our sdsu days, she lives in seattle now and called me in the middle of a helacious storm there, to tell me she reads my blog.
wow! who knew?! we all hear those stories about email relationships, and the danger of communicating only electronically, and the separation of society we are facing as we all sit in our little individual cubes and "talk" to each other via the internet.
but i gotta tell ya, i don't think lk and i would have talked at all last night if NOT for the whole blog thing...it was great, because we shared stories about homeless neighbors, and jobs and gardens and even God, all because there were common elements from my blog to grasp onto. after such a long time, i think it was a nice blessing that she stalked my blog, and i welcome her to do it anytime! the same goes for any other "blokkers" that might be reading, you have my permission anytime to spend time on The Back Forty!
now, k, we gotta get lk to make her OWN blog. i am not above the possibility of stalking HER too!
Friday, December 15, 2006
ah. friday. i awoke early, feeling a little introspective today. it started with an innocent comment from K about my blog. she noted the duality of the posts, from a steadfast awe in Jesus to a wordly fixation with television "stars" - and she hit it exactly. the blog entries usually don't lie - they are a dead giveaway to my heart!
i wonder about how easy it is to lose our focus, to distort the cross with all of the other "stuff" that gets in the way. sometimes even GOOD stuff, like loving your family and friends, and mentoring and laughing and blogging.
of all of the books of the bible, i am most drawn to the book of acts. i am amazed at the transformation of the people when the Holy Spirit comes upon them. they didn't just "act like christians" - they WERE completely new! they met every day and worshipped with each other, they gave their troubles and their hopes and their ambitions to the One who gave THEM life! they saw that God was for everybody, not just a few but all, and decided their lives were going to be about THAT, not something else.
as a believer, i want the book of acts and today to be the same thing. i want to be one of the ones who is empowered by the Spirit to speak about the Lord, not one of the ones who gets tangled up in "stuff" and misses the point!
i want today to be about sitting at the throne of God. grateful for Him, unfazed by all of the madness going on around me. untroubled by the long list of things i don't possess, without fear about dreams that might not come true. grateful for the One who knows me, who knows i'll be okay, because he planned it that way. hopeful for the way i don't even know yet, that He has planned for me if i'll accept it. grateful for those around me who know what i know, and want to proclaim it also :)
today is going to be a good day! embrace it with me, won't you?
The whole congregation of believers was united as one—one heart, one mind! They didn't even claim ownership of their own possessions. No one said, "That's mine; you can't have it." They shared everything. The apostles gave powerful witness to the resurrection of the Master Jesus, and grace was on all of them.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
okay, so i've had two meetings so far with my new mentee J.
last week, i brought a bunch of scrapbooking paper and colored pencils from home, and we made "mini" christmas cards...we are going to finish up this week with that project, it was fun for both of us.
now, next week is the week before christmas. we ARE allowed to give gifts, they should be small. WHAT do i do? i know she is artistic, and also loves music. i know she is smart, but doesn't have alot of books at home to read. i DONT know what kind of books she would like. i have so far found out that school is "boring, mostly" and that she is good at math, not so good at vocabulary!
she is nine. somebody with experience here, help me pick out a good gift!!!!
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
okay, so you've already heard my gush over tom collechio from top chef. So I'll keep it down when i talk about ami james and miami ink. i like miami ink more than i care to admit. i never set time aside to watch it, but whenever i am channel flipping, i seem to end up watching good ole ami, and yoji, and chris and darren and nunez and kat von d...yep, i know em all by name. i am pretty sure miami ink is not a show that my pastor would recommend spending time on, but i "justify" it because of the art. i mean, cmon, these people are talented! forget that it's alot of skulls and motorcycles and other questionable subject matter that often gets "illustrated", but sometimes it's meaningful stuff like a poem or roses or a deceased persons picture. ami and the guys always listen thoughtfully as the customers talk about their pain. sometimes they even give a testimonial about their OWN personal pain when we need a break from seeing the needle and all that blood. actually, it's pretty DEEP for a tattoo show :)
which gets me to the point of this post, which is that i think i want to buy an ami james cell phone. it's black and it has a very pretty tattooish looking dragon on it.
would that be bad?
Sunday, December 10, 2006
just got back from seeing The Nativity Story.
wow. go see it.
maybe i am just getting mushy in my old age, but i went in with limited expectations because the reviews were not that good. and when the angels of the Lord started showing up, it was kind of cheesy. or maybe not, because i don't know really what that's like, to be truthful! but the storyline was really well played, and the truth of the miraculous nature of the story shone thru...by the end, i had a strong urge to worship!
i looked over at my friend sher, who loves the Lord so much. she seemed "into" it too...when it was over, i told her i really wanted to worship (at a movie!!!!!) and she said...."yes, i had my hand raised a little."
:) I would recommend going to see it.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
every time i go christmas shopping, i buy stuff for myself. this morning it was an innocent trip to younkers ... i ended up with a whole new set of peacock blue fiestaware!!! i held back, and only bought a service for four, but i could have bought enough to feed Sioux Falls. wheeeeeeee. it's so pretty.
see, the thing is, i love color. i cannot for the life of me figure out why i bought a set of WHITE fiestaware (and a matching service for 4 of lite yellow) back when i got out of college a long long time ago. but over the years, i have supplemented the collection with turquoise bowls, green soup mugs and orange mini bowls. still, mostly i ate on white plates.
not anymore! i am not sure that blue is actually a great color for putting food onto, but my turkey sandwich just looked really pretty!
okay, back to christmas shopping for somebody besides me.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
how come a 45 minute lunch feels more like a lifetime of change?
probably cause i felt my heart jump out of my body, i am officially a "mentor" after lunch today. i have been thinking about volunteering for about 2 years, esp. since i started doing projects for the united way. about a month ago, finally something in me said "do it now" (hmmmm, who would THAT be?)
so today i met J. she is 9 and goes to 4th grade. she is blonde and blue eyed and had an abercrombie fitch tshirt on with a sparkly butterfly pin. as we sat down to eat, she noticed it kind of "matched" my butterfly ring.
and there you have it. one heart, ready to fall hook, line and sinker. the thing is, i'm not a natural for this mentor stuff. i am the kind of person who gravitates towards cats, and maybe gerbils. kids? no way...too scary. i did not even babysit when i was younger! i don't do kids.
luckily, the Lord KNOWS this, and gave me one who reminds me alot of one i know that lives over in minnesota ;)) the counselor at the school says she will be "easy".
good thing for me, i'm a beginner.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
tip for the day: if you don't make some of this, you are just silly!
i found this recipe on the internet, and was reminded of summer nights at the Firehouse in Rapid City, with good friends and really good food and beer! you can use any kind of beer for this recipe, i don't keep beer on hand, so i bought Leinekugel wheat beer and it was great. next time, i'll go with something darker...
Crazy Easy Beer Bread
3 cups self-rising flour (buy it, you'll use it)
3 tablespoons sugar
1 12-ounce bottle of beer
(i also threw in 1 cup of sharp cheddar cheese for the heck of it!)
Mix batter well, until sticky and blended. Grease a loaf pan (i used 3 minis, so i could give 2 away) and bake for one hour at 375 degrees (less time for smaller pans)
oh, i also drizzled a couple tablespoons of melted butter on top before i baked it, yum.
this will impress and dazzle your family and friends, guaranteed.
Monday, December 04, 2006
look what i have nesting in the bushes in front of my house, catching some rays!
oh, i am starting to love him ;)
so far tho, he shows no interest in coming indoors. he's a free-spirited bad boy, i always seem to fall for those!!
btw, HIS name is loco, no matter what his other owners call him!
thanks to all who gave advice about getting a replacement for ernie.
after some prayerful thought, here's what i ended up purchasing. not sure yet how it will work, but it contains JET FUEL, so ernie should be quite powerful!
and, it cost $6.47, no monthly payment attached :)
now, i need to go get some febreze, so his insides match his super-powered motor!!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
so, today in my quest for the simple life, i had to go buy yet some more stuff.
ha. not really, this morning i enjoyed a nice round of "basement shopping". a few weeks ago when i cleaned out my cupboard, i found a yogurt maker tucked way at the back. i've been carrying this thing around for at least a decade, and i don't remember EVER using it! i guess that is because i discovered dannon, or maybe it is because i thought i was too cool to make yogurt (ps, we made this stuff at home in the 70s, in a little orange unit with individual glass jars - WAY sexier than this thing).
but forget about looks, this bad boy is cool too (no, i have no name for him yet)! all you do is scald some milk, and add a little "live" yogurt (try not to think about why it's alive) and then cook it in the handy dandy yogurt pot for a few hours. wha la, i got 4 nice cups of smooth creamy yogurt. and with the addition of a spoonful of homemade cherry jam, i should be looking at a nice breakfast treat in the morning!
total cost : $2.14 (not counting the extra milk i still have in the fridge). okay, so it's not really less expensive, but I MADE IT and therefore it is better! i think i might just go make some more ...
Thursday, November 30, 2006
anybody who knows me, knows that i love things very very intensely. one look at the "less than perfect" relationships i have hung on to in the past, and you see the sorry truth in that statement.
this kind of endearment carries over to my material possessions also. that's why i have a house named mabel and a car named ernie.
ernie is the subject of this post. i bought him on the way to hyvee for groceries about 9 years ago (can you say "impulse purchase") - he is a 1997 ford explorer. not really a glamour vehicle, but he's been good for me. he is shiny red - even now - and hauls everything i need from menards with ease. he has a cd player that doesn't work, and some rusty running boards, but you know - we are friends. he is cheap to drive and up til now has been relatively maintenance free.
this summer, i had to put about $800 into the brakes. i figured this out when i came sailing onto an off ramp on the interstate, and could not stop. doh. good thing i live in south dakota and NOT ONE other person was in the area when i whizzed thru the red light. $800 was a small price to pay to ensure THAT won't happen again.
then, i bought new tires. $400. not a big deal, except that for some reason - they don't hold air. i'm not a tire genius, but it seems to me that holding air is one of the more major functions of a tire. needless to say, i have learned to operate the fancy air machine at my neighborhood gas station, because i have to fill them up about once a month.
so, fast forward to this morning as it is 2 degrees outside. i had an out-of-the-ordinary 9:00 meeting - usually i don't schedule anything until at least 10 or 10:30, because, hey - i don't have to. but i go out to start ernie at about 8:30, and NO GO. okay, that sucks! i had some troubles last year, and no, it's not the battery. but when i called a guy to jump start me last winter, he just held his foot down all the way on the gas and got ernie going. so, it took 3 trys, but yes, that seems to work.
i cannot imagine myself doing this kind of thing repeatedly all winter long. #1 - it seems like a "maybe it'll work, maybe it won't" kind of thing, and i like a few certainties if i can have them. #2 - don't i deserve a new vehicle? i mean, really, i think i do. #3 - i know that we live in a disposeable society, but is throwing away a ten-year-old vehicle with 112,000 miles really throwing it away? is love really love when you decide you don't anymore?
nevermind. i know the answer to those questions. just wish me luck that i'll call a repairman, and not go buy one of these.
Monday, November 27, 2006
maybe it's a story only a gardener would love, but i don't think so. So here goes:
An old Italian man lived alone in the country. He wanted to dig his tomato garden, but it was very hard work as the ground was hard. His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison. The old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament.
Dear Vincent, I am feeling pretty bad because it looks like I won't be able to plant my tomato garden this year. I'm just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. If you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would dig the plot for me.
A few days later he received a letter from his son.
Dear Dad, Not for nothing, but don't dig up that garden. That's where I buried the BODIES.
At 4 a.m. the next morning, FBI agents and local police arrived and dug up the entire area without finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left. That same day the old man received another letter from his son.
Dear Dad, Go ahead and plant the tomatoes now. That's the best I could do under the circumstances.
i have never been much into recycling. for one thing, it's a pain in the butt. for another, i am pretty sure my garbage man just throws those recycle bins into the big compartment with all the other stuff, so what's the point?
which makes my latest little obsession all the weirder. i have taken to saving glass jars. you know, pickle jars and smuckers jars and stuff. i have even found that some of my candles come in very cool jars! i am also bummed that they put peanut butter in PLASTIC now, that is just stupid.
i'm pretty sure this little quirk is directly correlated to my obsession with canning. i can just imagine all the pretty little jams and jellies i'll make and you never know, maybe i can put some in these weirdly shaped jars i'm saving. memories of my grandma's "cellar" and about a thousand jars of stuff in that musty smelling place come to mind. i always sort of dreaded the jars of pickled "whatevers" that got passed around the table at christmastime. now, the memory has turned precious.
so, if you're into recycling and feel the desire to save your glass jars, just drop em off at my house :)
I hate to drive. i especially hate to drive at night. and i ESPECIALLY especially hate to drive at night in bad weather. so last night as i came home from brookings, i was doin' alot of praying.
First, i prayed for the Lord to protect me. Then, to protect the deer that inevitably get run over on our little stretch of interstate on the prairie. then, as i saw the stream of lights coming from the other direction, i began praying for safe travels home for all of the cars.
i was pretty sure it was going to be an uneventful trip, until i got to the Baltic exit, just outside of SF...it was misting lightly, and i wasn't sure how slippery it was. the car in front of me (my angel?) slowed WAY down, and because i am a chicken to pass anybody i just decided to follow him along since i was close to home anyway. people started flying past us, and a huge semi truck barreled by me in the passing lane, throwing lots of water on my windshield. when i started to come out of the slush, i saw IT, and it was very much in slow motion. i saw headlights up ahead of me "bouncing" head over tail, coming across the median of the interstate from the other direction. the guy ahead of me and myself just took our feet off the gas, and slowed down to a crawl. the crazy semi driver had just made it past ahead of the "toy truck."
when i got to the truck, i saw that it was a large SUV, laying on it's side just off the left lane of the intersection. the windows were shattered and "stuff" from the truck was spilling out on the highway. i wanted to stop, but it would have been dangerous. traffic slowed WAY down, and we all crept into town at about 40 mph. i later saw the air ambulance, so i imagined that they were heading to "my" crash.
oh thank you Lord, for keeping those people alive. i heard on the news this morning that NO ONE was seriously injured! how many times we take for granted His protection around us as we go about our lives in this broken world.
now, i just need to stay at home until spring :)
Friday, November 24, 2006
so, it was black friday i guess. for me, that hardly rang true. for the most part, i stayed away from shopping, except for a few "must have" items for the christmas decorating.
Mabel (my house) likes to play dress up. every year i have to change things up a little. this year, i emptied one of the big ceramic pots i have out on my patio, and propped the little charlie brown tree up into it, so it is alot taller. ohhhhhh. ahhhhhhhh. it turned out so pretty!
i am too scared to climb around the house and put lights on the outside (i did the 1st year i lived here!) but the living room is looking pretty snazzy!
now i think i'd actually like a touch of snow to look out the window at ;))
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Happy Thanksgiving all my blogging friends (you know i mean YOU when i say this :))
I pray God's goodness and abundance in all things for your life and your family. I pray that He blesses you with His peace and His heart through all that you do today. I pray joy for each one of you. And I thank God for you; I am grateful for the moments in time (and cyberspace) that He has allowed us to share.
Have a great day!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Thursday, November 16, 2006
well, it must be that time of the day again, when slacker creatives like to walk around the office and bug everybody because they don't feel like working...oh carey, how i miss being able to come over to your little blue cube :))
so, in lieu of actual officemates to bother, i just went and got the mail, ate a cookie, woke up the cat and petted him, and wrote JESUS in a funky font i found this morning.
is it 5:00 yet?
Monday, November 13, 2006
sure, it's not even thanksgiving yet, and sure, it's been hovering around 70 degrees here in SD, which is kind of refreshing for november.
but dang, christmas IS coming, and hobby lobby DID have an awesome 50% off sale this past weekend!
oh, i can hardly wait :)
Friday, November 10, 2006
well, i have new hair again, this time it is not exactly what i was expecting, but it does match alot of my outfits :)
Tammy, my hairstylist, is a wonderful woman. she is tall and youthful and beautiful. she has a nose piercing that is really pretty, and is way way more hip than me. i think she is finally at the point of comfortableness in our relationship, that she does what she wants with me!
usually, she calls it something exotic, like "adding dimension" or "giving it texture" or even just "chunking it" which is not really all that flattering.
i kind of prefer just calling it what it is, which is what phillip does when he says "hey, babe, i see you went for stripes again" when he sees my head.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
i cannot remember what it was like back then, but i know it will not be the same without them ... thank you, bound 4 life!
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
this morning i am watching the sun peak over my neighbors trees, and thanking God for His light.
yes, i know that this election was a long, hard-fought battle for some. And i know that in worldly terms of "winning and losing" - this would appear to be a loss for life. but thankfully, God doesn't deal in worldly terms. His ways are unique to Him, and His paths are often not predictable by us. One thing that IS predictable is that for those of us who believe, He is not a changing God. He is the same today as He was yesterday!
what i know to be different on this day is me. somehow in these past months, my heart is unexplicably changed, i cannot imagine being that "other" person who existed just a few months ago. no longer can i stand by and remain uncaring about life and also about people who are hurting. no longer can i keep the Gospel in, when the Spirit inside of me chooses to push it out. no longer will i "go to the mall" without the feeling that life is meant for more, for prayer and intercession and interaction and embracing the One who made us.
that is what God has done on this day. that is what He came for, He died for, and what He will continue to do! Be blessed everyone, i love you all :)
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
|You Are An INFP|
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. (in a house named Mabel!)
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. (some days, all three :))
Monday, November 06, 2006
have a blessed day!
a) Four jobs I have had in my life:
- kmart automotive dept. cashier
- futon salesperson
- sdsu graphics person
- self-employed woman of the world
b) Four movies I would watch over and over:
- what about bob
- the notebook
- okay, I only really watch tv
c) Four places I have lived:
- lake campbell, sd
- brookings, sd
- sioux falls, sd (five different places, does that count?)
- wow, my whole life in a 50 mile radius!!!
d) Four TV shows I love to watch:
- now you’re talking!! top chef!
- flip that house
- little people, big world
- project runway
e) Four places I have visited:
- san francisco
f) Four websites I visit daily:
- argusleader.com arrrrrrrrrrrggggh.
g) Four of my favorite foods:
- popcorn with melted butter
- toast with apple butter
- homemade potato soup
- bagels from bagel boy
h) Four places I would like to be right now:
- “exploring” with phillip in the black hills
- having coffee out on my sun porch with beener
- in colorado on the side of a mountain
- at hobby lobby, with a cart
Friday, November 03, 2006
This post is for my friend Rani, who blogged about this subject recently, and for myself as well. I found this while "haunting" some Christian blogs, I love the Hebrew meanings!
I have learned to be content regardless of circumstances (Philippians 4:11).
In Hebrew, you can’t really “have” anything. You can’t say, “I have this” or “I have that.” At best you can say, “There is to me a house” or “There is to him a car,” but you can’t “have” anything. As Messianic Jews and Gentile believers, we need to learn this lesson.What is our inheritance here on earth as children of Abraham? Nothing. We have nothing. But having nothing is a blessing. We are not children of this world who own things. We must teach our hearts this lesson. It is the blessing of our hearts to “have nothing” to worry about, to “have nothing” to be burdened down with, to “have nothing” to be chained in bondage to, and to “have nothing” to be upset about. It’s so good to “have nothing”! It makes our burdens so much lighter.
So, as children of Abraham, we need to teach our hearts to think and speak Hebrew! We must unload and let go, taking the “my” out of our hearts and rejoicing in the wonderful freedom and blessing of “having nothing”! For to such belong the Kingdom of Heaven and the one real treasure we do possess—knowing God.
…teach my heart Hebrew and let go of my possessions and burdens.Amen! Have a great day
Thursday, November 02, 2006
i came across a very poetic blog this morning, and the words struck a chord:
And so, I just have to ask the question:
Why would any Christian who claims to follow Jesus not model and lead others to do what he did on a regular basis? If I’m not mistaken, he was known for laying low and for seeking out the poorer quarters, where the ragged people go. He could usually be found looking for the places only they would know.
This was a man who traveled dusty roads with sandaled feet, choosing not to walk lightly upon pampered, favored floors, but to press flesh to earth with its grit and grime, to conquer pre-conceived notions of a pristine existence.
And so, our charge is much the same. We must learn—in fact we must train ourselves—as Christians to accept with grace our mission to redefine who we are. We must communicate that we’re not just about what’s happening on the inside of a church building where we typically gather. We must stop hiding behind agendas and platforms. Who we are is out there, where congregating brothers and sisters find incarnation at the street level.
If it helps you, then imagine it so.
Imagine not a long train on the Bride’s dress, laid nicely and quite perfectly on the scarlet runway by prim and proper bridesmaids who purse their lips and shush away latecomers as they shut the door. Envision instead an outdoor wedding and the billowing of a gown that swells and fills with a welcoming breeze; where the Bride has one arm strapped around the Groom's waist, and with the other, she throws the lacey veil and her bouquet to the wind, beckoning all to her arms—all to a celebration!
If we truly begin to get this, then we can model it for others. Pretty soon, it’ll become second nature to all of us as we move to the rhythm of what this Bride—made up of Christians—was always supposed to look like.
And if you look at it that way, it really is about us.
To be sure, the lyrics of life are sad at times but there’s a place where the music of missional living can calm the beasts of infantile disagreements. It is a place where followers of Jesus choose to get beyond squabbles over minutia and imaginary lines; it is right there where the orchestration of saints reaches a crescendo and swaying arms strive in unison to love and serve a dying world.
I don't know about you, but that, my friends, is the kind of Christian I want to be.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
hi, my name is bobbi and i have an addiction to tv stars.
he he he. it started waaaaaaaay back when, probably with the Monkees and Davy Jones. and thru the years it's always kind of been there, running the gamut from Don Johnson on Miami Vice to Lynn Swann from the Pittsburg Steelers to Rick Springfield when he was on General Hospital to, well, you get the picture.
My latest crush is going to be on tv tonite :))
His name is Tom Colicchio (pronounced Ko-leek-eo). He is a judge on Top Chef. i was going to put his picture up to prove he is crush-worthy, but for some reason, blogger is not uploading my pics anymore. (note: updated - it went this time!)
So let me just tell you about Tom!! He is really very hot, in an "I'm older and i know how to cook" kind of way!! He isn't like that silly Michael Kors on Project Runway who scrunches his nose funny and says mean things. nope, not Tom. He is always pretty nice to the people, even if he clearly thinks some of them are nuts or bad chefs. he keeps an even keel, he's like a cross between john wayne and a chef. and he doesn't really show it a whole lot, but i think he is funny too. one of his restaurants is called "wichcraft" - it's a sandwich place. you don't come up with THAT kind of stuff, without being a fun guy.
anyway, i'm well into the 2nd season of top chef (bravo at 9 tonite), and it promises to be as engaging and intense as season one. and even if it isn't - i'll be tuning in just for Tom.
let me explain: first off, it was busy...what's new, right? i swear i cannot handle everyday ordinary stress too well anymore, my head is okay (mostly) but my BODY just whacks out. i cannot breathe well, i feel like my heart has a giant weight on it. i was just waiting on some last minute deadlines and man, you would have thought my life was on the line. silly.
plus, i was on the way to becoming cranky. of course, one thing about stress is that it usually leads you to looking at other people negatively. i was heading that way with one particular client, until the funniest thing happened!
we needed to make an addition to a flyer i was making, and needed a visual - FAST. so i got a phone number to call, to ask for help. i gotta say, at first, i was not real pleased...this was the LONGEST voice message i ever heard, i sat there tapping my finger waiting to get to the FIVE options that would direct you about how to proceed with the call.
then, the funny part. first off, this company has a spokesperson named "farmer dan" - and farmer dan is from wisconsin. his voice is awesome, even tho i am mad. i am not being wooed by his good nature until he says - NO KIDDING - if you would like to hear a message from the Word of God, the Bible, press ONE!!!!!!!! can you believe that? and by pressing one, you get a great, actually ANNOINTED message! i actually downloaded it onto my computer later, and reread it!
Finally, i got to option 5, and got the nicest lady named Debby who said to me "you know, i think maybe we have a photo that the wall street journal took of us, how about i send that to you?"
5 minutes later, a perfect shot was sitting in my inbox :)
ha ha ha.
The Word of God from Farmer Dan. you cannot ask for much more than THAT, can you? plus, i hear his pie is pretty good :)
check him out:
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Today i am celebrating El-Ohim...another name for God. El means mighty, powerful, strong. Ohim (my favorite part) means The Creator - He who brings something into being from nothing.
In the last few days, El Ohim has made Himself known to me. One of my favorite things about the character of God is the element of surprise He places into ordinary everyday things. You know it's Him, because He twists up the order of things. This is my latest example:
I have been working quite abit for the Vote Yes for Life campaign. It's been on my mind, so when i woke up with a crazy thought in my head last saturday night, i was not that surprised. it was a headline, or a statement: Life is good. now, if you are in a creative field like me, you know that often ideas come this way. you wake up with them in the middle of the night, and the next morning you go, duh...and the idea seems silly.
I actually got up for about an hour on saturday when this headline woke me up. i sat at my computer and found a visual that i felt "went" with the headline. only thing was, i had no idea what i was going to do with it!! i decided on sunday morning, i might make myself a tshirt, or maybe do a blog post with that title. i figured that was the end of it, no big deal.
then, late yesterday afternoon i got the call. it was from a client of mine who is also working on the Vote Yes side of things. He said to me "Bobbi, i hate to call at such a late hour, but do you think there is any way i could get a FULL PAGE AD done by tomorrow morning?
Again, you almost have to know marketing to know how difficult this is...not necessarily to MAKE an ad, but to get approval. this particular ad would have to jump through the hoops of the Vote Yes legal office PLUS the 175 DOCTORS that were sponsoring the ad. nearly impossible.
immediately i remembered the silly "idea" that woke me up in the middle of the night...i asked my client if he liked that idea for his ad? and he immediately responded with "that's so perfect - YES!"
Long story short, i made the ad last night in no time at all. and we got approval this morning with NO CHANGES. So, God gave me the heads up on a quick rush job without me even knowing about it, and used me to create "something from nothing" for whatever reason He has!!!
wow. thank you El-Ohim.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
As the election looms nearer, i have been thinking about specific scriptures that speak to us about life. i believe that all of God's Word affirms life, and choosing life at all costs. over the next few days i will post some of the scriptures as they lead me, this is my favorite one!!!
I pray the Spirit of the Living God will lay His hand over our state and all those in it today and in the future! We bless your name, Lord!
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
you know, one of the good things about blogging is that it kind of forces you to think about where you spend the most of your time. there are several scriptures related to this, i think maybe Matthew 6:21 says it best: For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
So, sometimes my heart is in questionable places. For instance, at the end of a hectic work day, one of my favorite escapes is to my magazines. i am sort of addicted to magazines, there, i have admitted it. this has been the case for many many years, i guess i found them an affordable treat back in the days when i was young, and single and dreaming up a better life for myself.
somehow, the comfort of crawling up with a new magazine has really never stopped wooing me. i get excited when one comes in the mail!!! sometimes, i don't get to read them for a few days, or even a WEEK, but oh boy, i am happy when i finally sit down to a new one. To get the point across, here are the mags i currently subscribe to, in somewhat order of my favorites:
Mary Englebriet's Home Companion
Better Homes and Gardens
How (a design magazine)
Print (another design magazine)
Every day with Rachel Ray
And as if getting EIGHT magazines a month is not enough, i also usually buy on the newstand:
Martha Stewart Living
Midwest Living (that's alot of living i'm doing)
Any gardening mag i see
And my mom gives me her old:
Good Housekeeping (which is difficult when you have 1700 magazines laying around)
i'm sure there are more. the thing is, i usually don't even read most of them. i look at the beautiful pictures, and daydream that i am in those perfectly kept, warm, cozy, yummy smelling, full tummy, craftily perfect surroundings.
oh Lord, someday won't you bring me there?
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
among the many things i love about summer, is that i actually take more lunch breaks when it's nice out.
not that i am a slave driver boss or anything, but somehow, when the weather turns yucky, i just sit here at the computer til i drop. oh, i EAT lunch, i just usually end up slurping soup on my keyboard, and surfing blogs...
but, today i decided to make a break for it, and go outside for a little bit. Been and i did a trek around the yard. i was dying to find something lovely to photograph, alas, the best things to look at are just sitting on the step :))
so, here is my ode to wednesday, october 25. it's a beautiful sunny day, birds are chirping loudly, and summer is just around the corner, in my dreams.
Friday, October 20, 2006
i am so happy, because it's "jammy day" - a very good day indeed!
here's what it consists of:
• A 32-page project that is due by Monday, i have a bunch of dvds with photos, a 30-page word document, and nothing but empty pages to fill :) yeah! that's what graphic artists love best!! the project is a farming brochure, so lots of photos of fields and corn and elevators. perfect for a back forty girl like myself.
• no need to go outside whatsoever. sure, i have to get a shower gift for a wedding shower i am going to tonite, but i can always pick something up "on the way" ;)
• coffee and snacks. i might even bake some apple bread later this morning. it will not take long, and hey, i'm the boss!
• the knowledge that a weekend is just around the corner. i can almost smell it already.
• my fave stretchy pants, stretchy socks, stretchy shirt, and even a semi-stretchy blanket ;)
happy friday everyone, whether you are in your jammies or not!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
ummmmm, nothing like a good cat nap on a blustery day! actually, been takes his cat naps very seriously whether it is blustery or not - but pretty much every day when i peer over at the perch underneath the window, this is what i see.
he is living day to day now. several good days in a row are great for both of us! the bad days are coming more often than i care to think about, but somehow, the cat naps still seem to be pretty peaceful. he is coming up on the two year mark since i found out he has kidney disease, so every single day actually IS a miracle! and we have made a deal that he can go whenever he is ready, i will be okay.
i love him so. i swear, if i did not have so much to do i would just squish up next to him and take a nap right now too!
Monday, October 16, 2006
okay, i must be going nuts. lately, housecleaning is just making me SO HAPPY!!
i guess i finally hit a wall with cat smells and dust and stuff falling out of the closet all of the time. i have been doing "fall cleaning" for a few weeks now, including my basement, which was absolutely atrocious.
so, i have a new discovery! i have been very loyal to the mop and a bucket of mr. clean, til the new man came along. yep, i finally gave in and bought a swiffer. phillip told me to do it LAST SUMMER and i chewed him out for needing a fancy schmancy mop, when an old-fashioned one is just fine.
until i tried it! my new one is purple, the first thing to love about it. secondly, you just velcro on the cleaning pad, so even i can figure it out. thirdly, it's so easy to use!! yeah, it's battery operated, and that is just insane for a MOP - but last night beener had his bi-weekly furball on the floor, and swiff!!! there it went.
it would be absolutely perfect, if not for the fact i had to hear phil tell me "told you so." :))
Friday, October 13, 2006
i have had a new obsession this week ... i have been eating Hutterite popcorn for supper every night! yes, you read that right. The sort-of-long short story is that i bought this bag of popcorn at a fundraiser in Montrose in august for my friend out there with cancer. She taught part-time at a colony last year, and some of the Hutterites came to the benefit with produce to sell and donate to her! i ate the veggies i bought right away, but threw the popcorn in the cupboard because i had plenty of microwave popcorn to eat, and that is easier.
then, i ran out. so i decided to give this stuff a try. the biggest challenge is that you have to make it on the stove ... scary. but it was super easy, and it brought back memories of how mom made popcorn when i was growing up, before the air popper was invented (we had the yellow one). oh my goodness, it is SO YUMMY. soft and fluffy and buttery and just ... well, it shouldn't be a substitute for supper, but it is :)
now, the other favorite thing i am talking about is Hutterites. i admit to kind of fantasizing about being one. i mean, they look so happy when i see em. and the older i get, the more i wish i could just "lock myself in" to a safe haven where the cold, mean world cannot get me. but would i really make a good Hutterite woman? i did some research on the web to see what it is all about.
Women on Hutterite colonies are typically housewives, cooks, gardeners, teachers (German, English, and Nursery), seamstress, and secretary for different business.
Work in a Hutterite community is usually done together in large groups. For example, gardens cover a few acres. When hoeing, there are often in excess of a dozen women helping, so large jobs are made small. Cooking is done in weekly rotations, e.g. two women would be the cooks for the week, in addition to the head cook. Also, unmarried ladies often teach school on the colony. Some have teaching degrees, others take informal training. Older Hutterite women take care of children in the Kindergarten, teaching them religious songs, prayers and cooperation.
yeah. i think i would be good at being a Hutterite! i would get a little sick of the long dresses and hats, but as long as i had some in different colors, i think i could make it work. the only thing i am wondering is, do they have HGTV and blogs?
Thursday, October 12, 2006
today, i had lunch at the mall with a friend. not my idea, but since i had not been there in awhile, it sounded fun.
w r o n g . malls are bad now. i did one quick "buzz" up and down the main aisle and was preyed upon by no less than THREE of those people hawking crap from their kiosks. i don't know how much you earn to swoop down on a person and MAKE THEM TAKE YOUR HAND CREAM, but it would have to be alot. not fun, not fun at all.
so, i am just going to get everything i need at the places that i enjoy from now on. like good ole Target. you could live off stuff only purchased at target, i think. although i would still want to go to menards. and my sunshine downtown. and gordmans. and i really actually do like wal mart.
oh nevermind. shop where ever you want, just beware of the mall unless your hands are looking kinda crusty.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Ever notice how every day is completely unpredictable? i wish i were more free in spirit, because sometimes a simple day can make me crazy...
yesterday was kind of that way. everything started out pretty routine - had my coffee and blogs and emails and a fairly simple schedule of tasks to complete and meetings to attend. then the first "quirk" of the day, my computer went funky on me. it wouldn't print. then it wouldn't run programs. then it gave me messages like "serious errors have occurred. go to nearest store and purchase new machine immediately" or something close to that :))
so, i ran, not walked, to my nearest mac doctor and he guided me thru some repairs. in between meetings, i ran this and that software and did a few things to try to fix it. oh, and i scrambled in to buy a $180 250 gig external hard drive so that some of my projects could have a chance at life outside of this machine!! finally, it looked like all was well, and everything was back to normal.
then, in the nick of time, i went to see the Bebo/Aaron Shust concert at usf. it started kinda rough, with an inexperienced "MC" who told us with not much grace that Aaron would not be coming to sing tonite! arrrrrrrggghhh. yeah, his wife had a kid in Georgia or something and he had to go home, but what about ME?!!!
later tho, the show turned sweet because bebo has a really good spirit about him...and my company of friends was pretty sweet too. nothing like ending the day on a good note, literally.
then, this morning, i attempted to turn on my itunes to continue the mood with some bebo songs, and i get the message "itunes disabled" and cannot be located...or something like that.
hhhmmmmpppppffff. looks like another roller coaster day ahead!!