burden lifted

this is the size of the weight i feel like i have been carrying around on my shoulders for the last few months. this morning, it's been magically removed.

no, Jesus did not do a miraculous healing, although i'm sure He helped me. the "big rock" was my taxes. they are not actually complete, i will go into my tax preparer on monday to have her file them for me.

but all of the addition, subtraction, multiplication and division that it requires to go into her office, is officially DONE. the little 9x12 envelopes with all of the receipts and proof of deductions are sitting in a neat little pile looking at me, schwew. it took all morning. now i am going to go do my errands and enjoy the rest of the weekend.

which will be easier now, because i am LIGHTER!

:)

girl boy girl boy

our semi-regular "girls lunch" today included several cute boys, something for everyone. i am particularly enthralled with the one in the onesie, especially since he is quite a flirt. but the 4T "big boy" knows how to charm the girls as well!

reverend al

this morning i have been listening to al green.

back in the day, i could never imagine listening to some crazy funky groovy black guy who sang in the 60s about love and sex and God all at the same time, in a wild falsetto that can only be described as "smooth." not me, i'm a southern rock girl, remember?

then, one day a couple of years ago, i met a young man who was working at painting my house. he had the habit of wearing earphones, all day long, no matter what he was doing. i imagined that he was probably listening to some weird rap songs, or maybe some hardcore rock and roll, like cinderella or something.

it wasn't until quite awhile later, when i got to know him better, that he shared with me what was spinning on his cd...it was the reverend al, almost exclusively...i would guess the young man knew a THOUSAND songs of his, all of them by heart, from years spent listening.

at the time, i didn't really dig it that much. but somehow, i ended up falling in love with the young man, and with al at the same time. i am sharing a part of myself that i have never told ANYONE (including the young man) when i say that i dream of hearing "belle" at my wedding some day.

ps, i tried to post "belle" on my site, but there was an error in the code on youtube...it's there if you type in "al green belle" though!

rich

this morning i arose early, with an uncharacteristic motivation. i wanted to spend some time with the Lord BEFORE my day begins, instead of always at the end of the day, which has become habit for me.

i found myself in deuteronomy 11 and 12. these passages were such a great way to start the day, because they talk about the inheritance that the Lord has waiting for us, if we choose to love Him first, and follow Him always. They speak about the quality of the land He plans to give us, and how we cannot comprehend the wonder of it! of course, the Lord used a gardening analogy for me, He knows the language i am most drawn to:

The land you are entering to take up ownership isn't like Egypt, the land you left, where you had to plant your own seed and water it yourselves as in a vegetable garden. But the land you are about to cross the river and take for your own is a land of mountains and valleys; it drinks water that rains from the sky. It's a land that God, your God, personally tends—he's the gardener—he alone keeps his eye on it all year long.

This passage comes after a conversation yesterday about giving up ourselves, our control over our own life, and the question of how tough it seems to actually give UP ourselves. I never cease to be amazed that when we ask of God these deep, seemingly difficult questions, His answers make the most perfect sense. The Lord goes on in deuteronomy to explain that THE ONLY THING keeping us from our inheritance is our unwillingness to submit ourselves to Him... our tendency to want to "do for ourselves..." our tight grip on the things we cannot bear to lose, which have NO COMPARISON to the things that we could gain if we were to put Him first. and He tells us what we need to do quite simply:

From now on if you listen obediently to the commandments that I am commanding you today, love God, your God, and serve him with everything you have within you, he'll take charge of sending the rain at the right time, both autumn and spring rains, so that you'll be able to harvest your grain, your grapes, your olives. He'll make sure there's plenty of grass for your animals. You'll have plenty to eat.

Place these words on your hearts. Get them deep inside you. Tie them on your hands and foreheads as a reminder. Teach them to your children. Talk about them wherever you are, sitting at home or walking in the street; talk about them from the time you get up in the morning until you fall into bed at night. Inscribe them on the doorposts and gates of your cities so that you'll live a long time, and your children with you, on the soil that God promised to give your ancestors for as long as there is a sky over the Earth.

that's it. this morning i can see myself in that new land, enjoying the splendor of a garden i didn't tend, with the One who created it just for me.

:) be blessed today everyone!

absent-minded

apparently, blogging is like exercise. miss a few days, and you never remember to do it again :)

let's see, i'll give the quickie update on the last few days, via what is on my digital camera...

the weekend was great, relaxing and sort of rainy. siesta now tries to "escape" whenever she can, then kind of freaks out....as do i. i think she'll be an indoor kitty, if i can help it.

had lots of meetings earlier in the week. sad to find myself a fat girl again. that's an identity i was hoping to leave behind, but it snuck up on me. pray for me that God will show me a source of comfort that doesn't have calories, okay? ps - dress pictured is the one i bought for a meeting, only to chicken out and wear something brown.

today, i got been back in a baggie. i was dreading going in to get him, but strangely i am comforted by having him. i am not sure i want to spread him anywhere!!!! remember those sand paintings we used to make in grade school? layers of colored sand (or was it salt) in a jar? how weird would it be to have one with a cat in it, literally?

:)

call me ghandi

well, one nice day was nice. yesterday i had a great time on the Back Forty, even if it was alot of work.

but today is kinda soggy, so after running errands, cleaning house, and an awful trip to the mall to find a professional outfit of some sort (no luck, i think i am better off in farmer circles from now on) - i came home to a few gardening blogs.

a lot of gardeners seem to be rather liberal in their thinking, i have noticed. one of the more flamboyant ones had a TEST on her blog, and it appears my political compass is also still more to the left, although i think less so than when i was young and thought much differently about things than i do now.

anyway, i layed my chart on top of some famous ones they had on the site, and wha-la, there i am! right next to ghandi! i admit i "guessed" on some questions that were too hard to figure out, so i am quite sure i'm not exactly like ghandi. for one thing, i most decidedly NOT hindu, i also am more into feasting than fasting.

he he. take a look if you want to see where you fall...

http://www.politicalcompass.org/index

freedom friday

as a reward to myself for having survived a "full frontal attack" in clientland this week, i am taking the afternoon "off"...

what that means is that i will be heading out to the Back Forty. after a trip to menards to get new gardening gloves, trimmers, and 40 gazillion lawn bags.

man, there is alot of crap back there. it seemed a good idea to leave the whole garden last fall, and to clean it off in the spring. i think the bunnies are happy about that plan, cause there is bunny poop everywhere back there!

but now, i have to deal with it. dead plants and bunny poop and a seemingly endless task.
if it were not for the fact that i get to go outside and be in a perfect 60 degree day, it would not seem that fun!

have a happy one, especially Karen!!!

me likey.

you know what i like?

i like when you are listening to a song, and you wish you could remember the concert a little better, and you go to youtube, and you find a video, and you watch it and listen at the same time :)

ps. too bad that big black saucer covers up Rob's face most of the time. i think the video shooter was mad about that, too.

song for a rainy spring day

from Rich Mullins...peace to all of you ;))








Peace

Though we're strangers, still I love you
I love you more than your mask
And you know you have to trust this to be true
And I know that's much to ask
But lay down your fears, come and join this feast
He has called us here, you and me

And may peace rain down from Heaven
Like little pieces of the sky
Little keepers of the promise
Falling on these souls
This drought has dried
In His Blood and in His Body
In the Bread and in this Wine
Peace to you
Peace of Christ to you

And though I love you, still we're strangers
Prisoners in these lonely hearts
And though our blindness separates us
Still His light shines in the dark

And His outstretched arms are still strong enough to reach
Behind these prison bars to set us free

So may peace rain down from Heaven
Like little pieces of the sky
Little keepers of the promise
Falling on these souls the drought has dried
In His Blood and in His Body
In this Bread and in this Wine
Peace to you
Peace of Christ to you

And may peace rain down from Heaven
Like little pieces of the sky
Like those little keepers of the promise
Falling on these souls the draught has dried
In His Blood and in His Body
In the Bread and in this Wine
Peace to you
Peace of Christ to you
Peace to you
Peace of Christ to you

shoots

what could i have been thinking of? now i have 80 stringy little signs of life that need my attention (and sun and warmth) every single day! aaaaaaaarrrgggh.

so much funner (yes, that is a word) to just go to greenhouses in the spring and buy the "good to go" plants...

:)

remembering been

today i am thinking of beener alot...kind of embarassing, but sometimes i forget he is gone. i think to myself 'oh, i need to see if been is hungry' and then, i get a little sick feeling when i remember.

today i got a beautiful bouquet delivered from friends who love their pets too, how nice that they came on a day when i am sad, to remind me that it's okay to still be "feeling" his loss.

beware!

i know he was old, and weak, and it was his time. but still, it kind of feels crappy to know i was feeding Been a tainted cat food in the days before his death! i will never know for sure, he was not eating much of anything anyway.

but if you have a pet, be sure to check out the list of foods that are affected!!

http://money.cnn.com/2007/03/19/news/companies/petfood/?postversion=2007031908

what does this logo remind you of?

ha ha ha ha.

i am not a big hillary fan, but i wonder who was smoking what when they came up with that logo behind her?

it looks suspiciously familiar to me....

new tricks...

on a whim yesterday, i decided to buy a fancy schmancy new software upgrade for my computer - $582 bucks worth! that is plain silly, but i have very few substantial business investments for my company, so i have to bite the bullet for the few important items.

a friend called and asked me if i had it, and it got me thinking i needed to get with it and make the purchase.

today, i am both happy and sad ... i am like an old puppy (not dog) trying to learn new tricks! at the same time, i have dreams that i will be able to make new and cool things i have never made before!!!

this package allows me to do some very neat things. the one i am most excited about, is that you can take photos and transform them into "line art" or basically drawings. look out for new and improved Beener artwork to memorialize my old boy, kind of like andy warhol tomato soup cans :)

i am old enough to remember the days when you could not sit in your office and invent any image under the sun, but i really like this day in age better!! okay, going to keep playing :))

call it a day

yesterday was what i would call a "full" day.

here's how it went:

set alarm for 6 am so that i could get some projects done before traveling out of town. awoke at THREE am, got up, worked crazily til 8 am to get said projects * due today * done before i went out of town.

traveled 1.5 hours to small town SD for a meeting only to discover i was supposed to be there TODAY, not yesterday. thankfully, they rearranged their schedule for me! met with 3 incredibly cool and brilliant people (one of them said that we are now in the beginning stages of dating, probably why i still think they are cool and brilliant!) and among other things, discussed the correlation between spiritual growth and their business. which has nothing to do with spiritual growth on the facade. gotta love it!

drove back to SF via more small towns i had not been thru in years. brought back some old memories. oh! and i saw what looked to be a black lab in the distance, on an ice chunk in the middle of a pond. nope, as i got closer it was a BALD EAGLE. whoa. cool.

got back to town just in time for a meeting in which i thought the client had revisions on a project for me, and she though i had them for her. seems there was a lost email that bungled up that one. sometimes, meeting in person is better.

quickly finished up snacks (not brilliant, but sufficient) for 1st alpha course. of the 8 that signed up, 3 were in attendance. not to be daunted, we prayed beforehand for the Lord to run the show. which He did...i thoroughly and completely got into the conversations. it dawned on me about 30 minutes into this thing that i was going to LOVE these people for real. i want them to have a relationship with Jesus. and i think they want it too.

anyway, we finished up about 8:30, and i came home to collapse on the couch. funny thing, but BEFORE that point i had not been tired at all!!!!!!! i believe that SOMEONE was giving me unusual energy to carry out the tasks before me...ahhhhhh. gotta remember that THIS is living!

progress

as of yesterday, every SINGLE one of the zinnia seeds i planted came up! that's 20 little guys to tend to until may when they will get planted.

sunday, i planted 4 different kinds of basil seeds for the herb garden. hope they are half as easy to grow as the zinnias.

F U N .

helloooooooo!

i have been waiting to say "hi" to all the creatures in the back forty this spring. i especially miss the baby bunnies and the neighborhood cats who regularly roam when the weather is nice.

but there are other regulars too.

this little woman greeted me unexpectedly yesterday when i stepped out to get the mail. i used to have a whole snake family living under the crack in my front steps. they like to sneak out and sun themselves on the step when the weather is warm...

luckily for me, this one decided to grace me with her presence more gently, she was in the flowerbed right nearby the steps.

hi, honey, glad you are still here...

i have interesting friends

look what my friend kristie lou is doing in a couple of weeks!





Crane watching!!!

i added her website serendipity over on my links section...she posts about her adventure there.

this looks fun. i guess i am a tree hugger too...

chair rest

for some reason today, i cannot get comfortable in my chair.

it is lumpy and moving and every once in awhile, sticks a very sharp object into my back or arm...

:)

shelf life

on friday last week, i finally decided i needed to eat some food. i guess death is the only thing that can kill my appetite.

anyway, when i went hunting for some "comfort food" i saw that comfort had clearly left my house. nothing was really there, i had kind of neglected grocery buying last week.

i spotted a box of rice a roni on the top shelf, and remembered that my friend barbara gave it to me when we worked together, it was a gag gift of some sort (cannot remember the gag). the last time i worked with barb was probably about 7 to 8 years ago.

so, checked the box. expiration date: august 2003.

in my depressed state and need for food, i really didn't give a darn. so, i made the whole box, and ate most of it. and i have to tell you, that was the bestest rice a roni i have EVER eaten.

i may buy a nuther box for when the next devastating moment hits. it's always good to be prepared.

:)

one cute thing

last night in bible study, i remembered one cute thing about the day i had to take Been into the vet.

of course, i was a mess, had clearly been bawling for about 36 hours straight. as i drove up to the clinic, there was a young mom and a little toddler, about 2 years old probably, leaving the clinic. the little girl was in a "playful" mood and the mom was trying to hurry her to the car.

i got out of my truck, still bawling, and got Been out of the back seat. as i was holding him on my side of the car, this little girl came running around the corner, as her mom was yelling "xxxxx, get BACK here!"

when she saw Been, her eyes LIT UP and she screamed "KITTY!!!!!!!" and ran over to pet him, while i held him for her.

so, the very last thing Been got to do on this earth is make a little girl happy :)

cool, huh?

distracting myself

well, a whole weekend under my belt, and i am not crying as much. i have found that spending time away from home has been most helpful.

so, last night my friend kristie and i went to see jars of clay at our beautiful concert pavilion. sadly enough, it was 20% full. very perplexing, aren't jars of clay famous?

anyway, the concert was great. not real worshipful, but more like a rock and roll concert (which can be fun, too). the lead singer sounds like smooth golden honey. i love his voice. i love music. i love that kristie and i have discovered this common passion :)

it was a good way to start fresh this week.

coming out of it

after about a week of pretty severe despair, i think today is the day that i must begin to move forward again.

i have been wanting to memorialize beener in some way, so i will go to target this weekend and buy a collage picture frame of some sort to make a pic for by my desk.

i was talking to kirsten yesterday, and she was telling me about a stone marker she got for kali...since been's ashes will be scattered out back this summer, i thought that a marker of some sort might be nice. i went online looking for one, and they were really expensive!!

then this morning, a blog i read about gardening sent me to a new seed place. they have a stone marker KIT you can buy, that has a whole complete alphabet and molds to make whatever words you want. i ordered it because it was not that expensive, and i can also make plant markers for some of my herbs, and even stepping stones if i get really ambitious. several years ago, i took a stained glass class, and have always wanted to make "glass" bricks to line a walkway, i think this kit will help me do that, and add words!!!

can't you just see scripture written out along a pathway in a garden?! i can :))

happy weekend friends.

restoration

ah. friday comes in a very long week. as i sit in my little office alone this morning, i am struck by how my body is just wrecked. i have a backache, my stomach is filled with a large lump of despair that feels like a real tumor, and i can feel physical pain tugging at my heart.

i have felt this feeling before, thankfully only once or twice. it is times like this that i realize that we were not made for death. every fiber of our being is made for life, for the breath that was breathed into us from the beginning. it is times like this that i can begin to comprehend the burden that came with the cross, and the victory that only the cross brings for us.

i am so thankful to mourn with the Lord. yesterday He was my greatest companion. He came to me in many forms, from unexpected phone calls to hugs and prayers from treasured friends. more importantly, He came to me with his rhema Word, which never ceases to amaze me.

on wednesday i bought a copy of an album called Glory Revealed on itunes. it was nice for beener and i to sit and listen to worship music as we carried out our goodbye ritual. one of the songs is called "Restore to Me" and i was immediately struck by it, at a heart level. the lyrics are something like "restore to me the joy of your salvation, restore to me the wonders of your love" and i listened. and listened and listened, as i cried.

last night, as i sat alone, i turned to the Bible. i read all of the scriptures for march 9th, pleading with God for comfort in His Word. i finished the days reading, and needed more. suddenly, my heart realized that yesterday was the 8th, not the 9th. excitedly, i backtracked to the scriptures for the 8th...seeking, seeking. and of course, He answered. in the grace of the Words themselves, i saw Psalm 51:12

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

there in the quiet of the evening of a very sad day, i was so blessed to feel the presence of the God of the universe, telling me that he will restore joy to me again, the wonderful promise that i am standing on today.

My Sweet Beener 1989-2007

Rest peacefully, sweet been, i will look forward to seeing you again someday.

worship wednesday

new day, new worship music - this one is hot off the presses on itunes, it's a compilation cd that includes mac powell of third day...whom i heart.

love the cd artwork too!!

anywhoo, this group is "touring" this spring, and my fellow concert-cohort and i are planning to head to st paul and northwestern college for a little worship retreat weekend in april.

ahhhhhh. goodness is good.

wooo hoooo

holy cannoli!!!

i planted my 20 zinnia seeds on Sunday afternoon...woke up this morning to sprouts :)

6 of em are up already...in less than 3 days (package said 7 to 14 days)...

Either i am a super gardener, or the Lord is trying to remind me that He gives life :)

my comfort today

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. Psalm 56:8

anthropleeeeeeeassse

one of my favorite online stores is anthropologie. i love the design of the site, and the overall aesthetic seems to fit me pretty well. it's new stuff that is made to look old, for the most part. back when i was a size 5, i did buy a few clothing items there too. now, i probably would not buy a $200 pair of fat pants :)

anyway, the place is expensive. my girlfriend who regularly buys shoes there is always on a guilt trip for the fed ex boxes she receives from them. but the pretty stuff keeps wooing her back.

i admit that usually i just look at the pictures. but today, for the first time, i am not so impressed. take a look at this "bird chandelier" which any kid in grade school could make, given some craft store fake birds and a bale of chicken wire (well, kids should probably not play with chicken wire).

i seriously think it's a "fun" look for the right place (like a graphic designer's office!) but the COST is what got me rolling my eyes: $798!

?

i'd like to know how many people have enough loose change rolling around that they'd be willing to spend $800 on THAT. and then i'd like to tell them they need to get a life.

green thumb

well, i had a look at the back forty this weekend, seems like the only activity back there belongs to the bunnies.

but not to be discouraged, i set up a little "growing station" in my office this weekend. it's the only south window i have, and there is not alot of room. but it appears that i have 80 opportunities to start seedlings, so i will go with that. frankly, most of my seeds will just wait and go directly into the ground in may.

i had been endlessly researching grow lights and heat mats and artificial growing conditions, when it struck me that to grow plants, you need: dirt, light, heat and water. all things available to me by the Lord in His time, not by seed catalogues and my own impatience!! ha. so, i am praying that at least a couple things come up, but if not, i will just have to wait a few more weeks to let nature take it's course!

happy monday!

one track mind

yesterday, phillip and i were talking. i said to him "hmmmm. there is something i've been meaning to talk to you about all week, and i keep forgetting."

in an attempt to help me remember, he said:

is it about been, or siesta?
is it about work?
is it about God?
is it about shopping or crafts?
is it about taxes?
is it about getting new windows?

yep, on the 6th try he guessed. it was about my friend Kristie saying that she put spray insulation in her old house, which helps with the heating costs. just like the new windows i want...

sure. it's great that he seems to know me that well, but here's the thing. am i SO PREDICTABLE that he knows exactly what i am thinking about in only 6 trys? i need to expand my repertoire...

:)

coerced

it's ironic that after my last post, blogger "forced" me to update to the new blogger. i have been resisting this, afraid i would somehow lose my rantings of the last year here at the back forty.

but, today i was not allowed to choose, so here i am, 100% in the NEW blogger :)

the cool thing is, i finally can access The Well, a blog i tried to start a few months ago dedicated to the Lord alone. and i can still post recipes at Granola Girl, which i started last month because i cannot keep a recipe file to save my soul. and of course if i ever feel like blogging about work, i have my original blog called one8y creative, which sits empty because blogging about work is not that fun.

:) think maybe i have become a little obsessed with blogging? ps, i also added a few links to my favorite bloggirls on the right. please let me know if you would rather i remove that addition, i don't want to impose on anyone!!

snow for sale

today it's a beautiful and sunny day. it's also peaceful, it's quiet, and i'd venture to guess it's much like any other sunday morning in march anywhere in south dakota. i woke up to an article in the paper that raised the debate "is sioux falls a CITY or a TOWN?" such talk has come up since a local billionaire gave $400 million dollars to one of the biggest employers in town (maybe the biggest, dunno) - a hospital - and set everybody in an uproar. from now on, it seems you are either "for" progress in sioux falls, or against it.

i never thought of sioux falls as a city when i moved here in 1990. beener and i came down the interstate a little ways, to my new life away from my home town of brookings. i was YOUNG, even though i was 28 years old. i was afraid of driving in sioux falls, because i didn't know where the one-way streets were (um, there are 2 of those). i was afraid of going to drive thrus for banking and fast food, because i did not know if i would hit the building (well, some things don't change). i was afraid of having to leave my car parked on the street, in case somebody stole it (which they didn't, but they stole everything in it once, and a couple of bikes to boot).

i guess, i was afraid of sioux falls becoming a CITY. i like small towns. i grew up in NO town, and i liked that too. i love south dakota because of it's remoteness, because the people in my alley raise gardens in the summer like they truly ARE on a back forty somewhere. i like that when i wake up in a snowpacked mess, karen from across the alley comes sailing thru with her snowblower (she is a transplant from jersey, and loves it here!) so i don't have as much to shovel. i like that phil (who was raised near san fran) says "anywhere in south dakota is the country" when we dream about where we'd want to live someday. i would not ever feel the same affection for sioux falls if it really did become a CITY, i don't think.

on the other hand, my business in marketing tells another truth. for the midwest, we do really, really well here. a couple of years ago, when the economy took a dive, people from minneapolis started coming here for interviews at the ad agencies in town. i guess when you are out of work, city living is less than desirable. today, there is more new business going on in sioux falls, and thusly more new clients for carey and i, than you can shake a stick at. it's fun to think we are growing! i for one, like that we have an arts pavilion, and a plan for revitalization of the downtown area, and new stores to shop at when i am not on a spending fast :) i am encouraged that we are growing for good!

no matter what you call us, if you are coming here to live, i think the most important thing to remember is to bring yourself a hat and some gloves. oh yeah, and a shovel :)

perkier

still not eating too much, but feeling a bit perkier today i think. thank you LORD.

:)

freedom!

whew! i am free from the snow dwelling! it took about a half hour, but now i am good to go...ernie even started up fine.

hmmmm.
i think i'll stay home anyway, but it's nice to know it's by choice, not circumstance.

:)

this is me today

it may be a big world out there, but i'm pretty safe and snuggly right where i am :)

prayers

more than anything today, i need prayer.

see, beener is kind of deciding not to want to do this anymore. he's not in pain or anything, but after 2+ years of kidney disease, i think he is just tired. yesterday he had trouble walking in the morning (paralysis is a symptom of this crappy disease) but today he did get up when i coaxed him, and had a bit of rani's biscotti for breakfast.

after nearly 18 years, i am not sure what i will do without him.

i know that every time i look over at him, my keyboard gets kinda wet, and i start going over in my head all of the years we've been together.

every day is a gift, i know that for sure. today i think i'll just treasure one of the few i have left with him...

i'll take door #2

here's a first look thru my door this morning when it was light enough to see outside. hey, where'd my front steps go? the last photo is what it looked like about a week ago!

i have a feeling i won't be getting many visitors today :)

lookit what i saw!

am i the only one who is sick of watching hgtv and having EVERY SINGLE PERSON choose granite counters and stainless steel?

now HERE is a truly cool fridge. i have an old yucky fridge, wish i had the guts to do this to it!!

blizzards and biscotti

okay, it really IS a genuine old-fashioned blizzard here!

think i'll sit down and enjoy the fruits of my morning's labor...

thanks Rani, it came out really well!

ahhhhh. snow day :)

well. 2 meetings cancelled today. so far, have ventured from the house 1 time, at 7 am, because i forgot to remember to buy coffee beans yesterday.

so, went there, did that, also got the ingredients for some of rani's homemade biscotti, and enough cat food for the weekend.

what more could i want?

happy day everyone!